I wanted to post this for a while but my heart was still hurt from the betrayal of my Muse. The way she decided to spurn me after we have written half a book together and just willy nilly decided to change Firdaus' character.
Since he is the second main male character in this book, of course I have to REWRITE everything.
But, although it hurts, I have to admit--grudgingly--that the story becomes much more interesting this way. Firdaus was a hard character to write because he keeps things so contained within himself, and Medea is almost as contained as he, so their chemistry was really hard to write about. And scenes between Medea and Firdaus was so terse and silent with hardly any dialog at all, it worried me that it'd be boring, that readers couldn't relate to them.
This way the connection between them will be more intricate and intense.
Hey, as I write this, I'm getting excited to write this book again. Cool. Writing things down does help my process.
Anyway, when before-Firdaus was the strong, silent, twisted type--you can't grow up in the Sidhe and be sane--now, he's the reckless I-laugh-in-the-face-of-danger type, he's the one who lives and feels strongly, who milks every sensation and feeling until it screams with mercy, who basks and revels in every emotion whether that's pain or joy or fury. He lives with a hunger and greed for 'feeling' because in the Sidhe he has to keep everything inside, has to learn how not to feel because every flicker of emotion could be used against him. So everytime he's out of the Sidhe, he gobbles up every sensation that he feels.
And now, he figures he is ready to fall in love. And then he meets Medea.
This way, they're really a foil for each other. Firdaus has a cause and Medea will have someone to teach her how to feel again, how to live again. They will pick at each other, will bicker and bring the best out of each other.
Copyright © 2014 by D.F. Jules
